Post by Baby-G on Nov 16, 2007 0:09:39 GMT 7
Did I post correctly?Or am I supposed to post under 'free chat'?Anyway,this is more like...my diary entry?I'm just so sad that I want to 'cry-type' everything out!!Ahhh!!
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15 November 2007, Thursday
Today,was my last day in Shuqun Primary School,as well as our Graduation Day. At first, we were supposed to perform in the violin group. Amalina and I were the leaders. However, AFTER ALL THESE HARD WORK AND PRACTICES, AFTER WE'VE PUT IN SO MUCH EFFORT...IT WAS CANCELLED!!At that moment,when Amalina broke out the news to me, I started to cry. Why? I thought. We had put in so much effort,and the school is giving ONLY OUR performance up coz that mic is faulty? For goodness sake! We did not need a mic. Our friends said that we were already very loud and they could hear from behind. They also stated that, the Band, Choir, and Violin are like a team. Without one of them, it feels so incomplete. Anyway,we tried to persuade the teacher, but she said it was the school's decision, and just kept saying sorry. Unable to accept this, I broke down in a pool of tears again.Anyway,if I tell you all the memorable things which happened today,I'd take a few days...Coz each and every happening in the school was like imprinted on my mind. To me, everything was special and important this fateful day...
It was already 9 pm, and everyone was quitely watching the last programme, a slideshow. Halfway through the touching chorus, some cried. I didn't know why, but I just did not feel like crying. Probably coz I cried to much in the morning and was expecting all these already. Nevertheless, I still cried when I hugged Mdm Harlinah. I just couldn't hold it any longer. Anyways,there was this boy, who actually cried! Haz!! He cried! My poor friend, I guess he was one of the only boys that cried, which made his crying such a big deal. Okay,fine, I admit.I DID notice him starting to cry all along. Why was I paying so much attention? Well, that obviously means...blah blah...hehe.
Anyway, Amalina and I like hugged a thousand times, because she was migrating to Australia and I might not have another chance to see her again! Pratically everyone was crying, even the 'cool' ones.Of course,with the exception of some cold-blooded ones. It was either they really did not have any feelings, or they just hid it and saved it to cry at home.
Okay, so ONLY I have liked 'him' all along. I mean, only ME liking him has been like spread all around the school. But for some reason, I have this strong feeling that he had at least a little affection towards me. Why again? WE, had eye-contact for quite a number of times. Most were just quick glances, but we looked away when we realised what the other was doing. Still, there was one which lasted at least 10 seconds. It was the second last. Slowly, he walked out of the school. As he was out of my sight, I sobbed again...Come on! Like since I came to this school, which was when I was 10, I knew I liked him. It's probably not some kind of relationship stuff to talk about at this age, but...I should forget it in a few more years.
Anyway, the last glance was when we were leaving for good. I don't know, usually he doesn't bother to look at me, but why this time? Most probably coz it's the last day of school...but still, what does that mean? Urgh! IRRITATING! I guess I'll just go back to my WM dreamland...it feels alot much better! *still sobbing*
~Jeslyn suggested to me that I ask him to go to Escape Themepark with us this Monday, 19 November 2007. But...I haven't even talked to him over the phone before, probably only...four short times since last year? So how am I going to ask? Should I even ask? I'm afraid he will not want to go...Is this a little to straightforward?~
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UPDATED ON 3 MAY 2008!!
I do not like that boy anymore. Those were just baby crushes and i have decided to concentrate on my studies. Anyway i totally ditched him hahas!! YAY
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15 November 2007, Thursday
Today,was my last day in Shuqun Primary School,as well as our Graduation Day. At first, we were supposed to perform in the violin group. Amalina and I were the leaders. However, AFTER ALL THESE HARD WORK AND PRACTICES, AFTER WE'VE PUT IN SO MUCH EFFORT...IT WAS CANCELLED!!At that moment,when Amalina broke out the news to me, I started to cry. Why? I thought. We had put in so much effort,and the school is giving ONLY OUR performance up coz that mic is faulty? For goodness sake! We did not need a mic. Our friends said that we were already very loud and they could hear from behind. They also stated that, the Band, Choir, and Violin are like a team. Without one of them, it feels so incomplete. Anyway,we tried to persuade the teacher, but she said it was the school's decision, and just kept saying sorry. Unable to accept this, I broke down in a pool of tears again.Anyway,if I tell you all the memorable things which happened today,I'd take a few days...Coz each and every happening in the school was like imprinted on my mind. To me, everything was special and important this fateful day...
It was already 9 pm, and everyone was quitely watching the last programme, a slideshow. Halfway through the touching chorus, some cried. I didn't know why, but I just did not feel like crying. Probably coz I cried to much in the morning and was expecting all these already. Nevertheless, I still cried when I hugged Mdm Harlinah. I just couldn't hold it any longer. Anyways,there was this boy, who actually cried! Haz!! He cried! My poor friend, I guess he was one of the only boys that cried, which made his crying such a big deal. Okay,fine, I admit.I DID notice him starting to cry all along. Why was I paying so much attention? Well, that obviously means...blah blah...hehe.
Anyway, Amalina and I like hugged a thousand times, because she was migrating to Australia and I might not have another chance to see her again! Pratically everyone was crying, even the 'cool' ones.Of course,with the exception of some cold-blooded ones. It was either they really did not have any feelings, or they just hid it and saved it to cry at home.
Okay, so ONLY I have liked 'him' all along. I mean, only ME liking him has been like spread all around the school. But for some reason, I have this strong feeling that he had at least a little affection towards me. Why again? WE, had eye-contact for quite a number of times. Most were just quick glances, but we looked away when we realised what the other was doing. Still, there was one which lasted at least 10 seconds. It was the second last. Slowly, he walked out of the school. As he was out of my sight, I sobbed again...Come on! Like since I came to this school, which was when I was 10, I knew I liked him. It's probably not some kind of relationship stuff to talk about at this age, but...I should forget it in a few more years.
Anyway, the last glance was when we were leaving for good. I don't know, usually he doesn't bother to look at me, but why this time? Most probably coz it's the last day of school...but still, what does that mean? Urgh! IRRITATING! I guess I'll just go back to my WM dreamland...it feels alot much better! *still sobbing*
~Jeslyn suggested to me that I ask him to go to Escape Themepark with us this Monday, 19 November 2007. But...I haven't even talked to him over the phone before, probably only...four short times since last year? So how am I going to ask? Should I even ask? I'm afraid he will not want to go...Is this a little to straightforward?~
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UPDATED ON 3 MAY 2008!!
I do not like that boy anymore. Those were just baby crushes and i have decided to concentrate on my studies. Anyway i totally ditched him hahas!! YAY
